Blessed

Somehow I forgot to post this but anyway here's an experience that I found really encouraging even if it seems so small...

So it began with me being driven into a place far away there through the forest of North Sumatra. Well, not really forest, actually. It's villages I saw -.-

But anyway I was so bored. I kept listening to the same songs (as usual, Korean and Japanese, sometimes Chinese - I just love Asian songs) and no one was talking. The chauffeur was driving with an okay speed - not too fast but not that slow, too. And my aunt was sleeping. So basically I had no one to talk to.

The only thing I did was staring outside.

Suddenly something hit me.

The sky was so blue.

Sometimes I just forgot that I grew up in Jakarta where basically the sky was grey (okay, in the UK, too) that I just completely ignored the fact that the dust we hate so much actually made us see the beautiful blue of the sky (well I forget the name, someone tell me please >.<) Anyway, I know that was random, but you know what I mean.

I was awaken out of the blue.

Then I started to notice the limitless sky.

The sky was so limitless that I seemed to be travelling inside a HUGE tunnel.

That's when it hit me that God made all of this.

After that I turned my sight to the side. There were churches.

Churches. Small churches. In villages. In Indonesia.

God, thank you so much that the Gospel has been spread to even such a small place. Thank God that He cares. Thank God that He makes everything possible. Thank God that He made me see all of these.

Thank God that He made me realize that He is GREAT.

So I need not be afraid.

Because basically our God has created everything soooooooooo wonderful that I'm speechless. Who would have thought that dust has this colloid properties called whatever that makes the sky looks blue. Who would have thought that His Words have reached even such small and far place Who could have created all of these except for our GREATEST GOD.

Man, I felt so blessed that day.

-Rin-

Silogisme

Ini pertama kalinya post gw menggunakan Bahasa Indonesia yang secara historik dan hukum sudah sah menjadi bahasa negara, walaupun gw ga pake apa yang mereka sebut "bahasa formal" coz menurut gw itu sangat amat membosankan dan bertele-tele. Okay, bertele-telenya seh ga, tapi yah, you get what I mean.

Hm. What should I start with?

Oke lah. Decided. Topik kali ini adalah:

Gw benar-benar tidak suka dengan yang namanya libur.

Kenapa? Bukan karena bosannya. Sori. Gw berbeda dengan tipikal orang-orang lain yang menganggap liburan itu boring.

Ga ah. Siapa bilang. Liburan itu menyenangkan, tau. Apalagi LIBURAN PANJANG. Karena di liburan panjang gw bisa me-recharge energi gw yang hilang selama ujian-ujian yang bikin otak gw konslet, ato apapun itu lah, short circuit deh setau gw. Dengan liburan panjang, datanglah yang namanya 'stay up late', 'wake up late', 'play for a loooooooooong time', dan kawan-kawannya. Dan itu kesukaan gw. Haha. Memang aku tak jauh dari orang lain.

Lalu, kenapa gw bilang libur itu tidak enak?

Simpel. Karena liburanku tidak seperti yang kuinginkan.

Kalo orang lain libur itu main. Kalo gw, ngeles. Bahkan, DIPAKSA ngeles.
Let's take an example. Gw baru-baru ini berhenti les mandarin karena: 1) gw sibuk UAN, dan 2) gw rada males. Ga belajar apa-apa. Bukannya gw sok ya. Tapi bener kata ade gw, di situ gw ga belajar apa-apa. Cuman baca doank. Bedanya cuman ada gurunya.

Kalo gitu, kita vote sekarang, siapa yang milih belajar sendiri di rumah tapi penuh dengan hiburan (bisa belajar dari internet yang artikelnya kadang lucu-lucu) atau belajar di tempat les yang sepi dan yang kau lakukan hanyalah membaca, menstabilo, menulis arti, membuat latihan, lalu dikte?

Gw pilih the former.

Karena gw belajar sambil have fun.

Tapi nyokap gw selalu bilang sama gw, "Ayo lah pergi les mandarin lagi sana."

Asal anda tau ya, Mak, energi gw belum fully charged. Masih cape. Tau ga gw belajar UAN US ujian praktek n tryout sampe seberapa cape? Okay, untung gw ga ngomong gitu, kalo ga typical responsenya bakal begini:

"Siapa suruh kamu belajar sampe malem-malem. Kan mami udah suruh tidur."

Iya, mi, udah suruh tidur, tapi bukanny lu waktu kecil yang ngajarin gw untuk BERJUANG belajar supaya dapet nilai yang bagus? Gw kan lagi mematuhi perintahmu. Gw tidak membantah, toh. Eh, sekarang malah disuruh tidur selagi gw lagi mati-matian belajar (sebenarnya seh ga mati-matian, gw juga sambil nonton, tapi ya tetep aja intinya adalah GW BELAJAR). Nah loh, sekarang maumu yang mana??

Balik ke topik.

Intinya, energiku belum pulih seluruhnya. Buktinya, kalopun bangun, entar gw juga tidur lagi. Kalo gw dah pulih seh, ga bakal. Jem 7 bangun, ga bakal tidur lagi. Paling juga ngarang-ngarang fanfic di otak sambil pura-pura tidur. Tapi ini ga loh. Gw bangun jem 6, tidur lagi. Bangun lagi jem 7, tidur lagi. Bangun lagi jem 8, tidur lagi. Bangun lagi jem 9, tidur lagi, mumpung ade belum bangun juga. Bangun lagi jem 10, "OH MY, JEM 10?! MESTI KE HUM JONO!!*"

Tuh. Liat kan. Tidur bangun terus gw.

Sekarang, mak, anda tidak membiarkanku mengisi ulang bateraiku dan malah dipaksa menghabiskan energi. Oke lah, gw terima apa yang lu bilang, "entar lu yang dapet hasilnya." Tapi bukan sekarang. Plis. Gw cape. Haiyo.

Bukan hanya gara-gara les gw ga suka liburan. Tapi juga karena kebawelan nyokap yang sebenarnya tadi sudah di-implied di alasan pertama. Gw belom siap bangun, dia matiin AC. Gw mau tidur terus, ga dikasih. Teriak-teriak di bawah. Main cubit-cubit kaki. Dah tau kaki gw sakit. Masalahnya gw kan masih cape. Lu kate mendengarkan omelan lu ga habis tenaga?

Asal tau aja, mendengarkan, mencerna, dan berusaha menenangkan diri karena habis mendengarkan omelan lu yang penuh makian itu makan ATP yang sangat banyak.

Dan masalahnya gw lagi diet. So, gw tidak punya cukup energi buat itu semua.

Alhasil, suatu saat pasti meledak. Dalam jangka waktu liburan ini. Percaya d.

Huh. Cape deh.

So, kita buat kesimpulannya sekarang.

Premis 1: Semua orang yang dipaksa ngeles waktu liburan dan dibawelin nyokap saat liburan tidak menyukai liburan.
Premis 2: Saya dipaksa ngeles waktu liburan dan dibawelin nyokap saat liburan.

Kesimpulan: Saya tidak menyukai liburan.

Apa ini namanya?

Silogisme.

Tuh, Mak, hasil belajar gw. Masih inget tuh. Bahkan dengan matematika dan bahasa Indonesia pun bisa kubuktikan bahwa aku tidak suka liburan.

-Rin-

*)ini kejadian waktu mau rapat di hum jono. Ceritanya seh jem 10 rapatnya. Tapi...hahaha.

Reverse lah...

Recently a video has been really popular.

"AUNTIE, REVERSE LAHHH...YOU ARE DRIVING LEXUS RX 300 YOU DON'T KNOW HOW TO REVERSE 'MEH?? THE WHOLE KAMPONG WAITING FOR YOU...YOU SEE THE LONG QUEUE THERE? HAIYO...REVERSE LAH...THE PARKING SO BIG LAH! IF YOU CAN'T DRIVE LEXUS DON'T DRIVE...USE BICYCLE! EASY PARKING LAH..."

Anybody recognizes these lines?

My classmates are crazy at those lines, really. Especially Keira. Now I am calling her 'Auntie' instead of 'hon' or 'babe'. Wew. And the most used line between us is this:

'Reverse lahhh....'

Simple. Yet if you add another word at the back, they can become a phrase that's really impossible to do. You know what's that word?

Time.

Can you reverse the time? I think no. We'll never be able to reverse the time. At least now (Except when someone can finally travel at light's speed, which is nearly impossible. Besides, it's only a theory. It has not been proven, right?)

Anyway. When I think of these words, or rather, this phrase, it has come to my mind that if I could do it, I would really be happy to. I want to be able to reverse the time back to when we, all 89 students, and many more, could laugh together. Could sing together in the worship. Could protest together at the teacher's 'unfair' markings.

Seriously, those are the happiest times in my life (well, there are other ones, but never mind that first.)

I cried myself to bed when I realized that the time to separate has finally come. In a few weeks.

Some people posted very sad comments about this particular moment. Honestly, at that time I didn't think of it. My brain was fully concentrated at studying, 'coz it was finally the LAST EXAM I would have while wearing a uniform. But then those posts appeared, and my mood to study was gone. In an instant.

I recalled the times when I could laugh and tease my friends. Also the times when I was teased and laughed at. I'm not sad about it now. I'm really happy, because I finally found my place. But now I am about to leave this place.

And it's sad. Really.

When I weeped I remembered this phrase. "Reverse lahhh..." Oh, how I wish I could really reverse the time. But then, let's face the reality.

It's gone now. Those times are gone, can't be reversed, can't come back.

But as one of my friends said, "Look ahead to the future." There are a lot of things and obstacles waiting for us, yet as long as we have those precious memories, we'll be strong. With God's strength, we'll win. That's what we always believe in, right?

Even though we are going our separate ways, at least we've laughed, joked, cried, protested, commented, and whatever we did together. And that's enough as long as we remember the smiles once we had on our faces.

And as long as we don't suffer from insomnia, that's it :)

Bye for now.

-Rin-

P.S.: Love you, all my friends!

Stand by U

Stand by U. A song from my current favourite boyband.

Musically, this song has a beautiful and calming melody.

Literally, this song has a touching lyric.

And somehow this song reminds me of something, especially the reffrain part.

Where are you? With whom are you? What are you wearing? What makes you laugh?
I'm here, still here. (I'm always here, even now I'm still here). I believe that we will meet again.

That's right. God is always waiting.

Even when we are wandering somewhere, He is still waiting. Waiting for us to come back. Waiting for us to call His name again.

Oh yeah, I've been through a lot. Not as much as my friends, but I can say that for me, it's a lot. And whenever I felt like I'm done, I realize that God is still waiting for me to call for Him. Then, when I finally called for Him and gave up everything to Him, He made everything become miracles even I myself couldn't believe.

But this is God we are talking about. His hands are unbelievably strong, and at the same time soft. Strong enough to support us, soft enough to pat us.

So, my point is, don't forget that whenever and wherever you are, God's there. Waiting. He'll be really happy if we turn to Him, I believe.
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Okay, now I'm going to talk about something else. Not something touching, actually. Something more about entertainment.

I mentioned before Stand by U is sung by my current favourite boyband. You know what the name is?

Yep. TVXQ. DBSK. Whatever you like to call them.

And I happen to be freakishly crazy for this particular personnel, U-Know Yunho.

Let me tell you something. Recently I changed my style for boys. Now I begin to look more for those who have beautiful bodies... you know Taylor Lautner? Sorta like him. But not as muscular as him though. And the looks are important, too. Another important thing is of course the attitude and characters. And that particular boyband leader has those qualities I'm looking for.

Well, I've been through a lot these days, as I said. And I bearly have enough time to do something relaxing. But somehow, towards the end of 2009 (or more specifically a little bit later after I entered the senior year), I found something to do that made me really feel relaxed.

Listening to music is what I've always done, so that's not new.

The same goes to reading.

You know what did I add to my list of things that make me feel relaxed? Watching U-know.

Believe me.

Right in 2004 if I'm not wrong, Mai introduced me the boyband TVXQ. That time I only noticed Hero and Max. I barely knew the others.

Then in 2009 I watched something that made me recall the name TVXQ, and I began my research on them. And my, I barely recognized Max.

And at the same time I realized that I didn't even know that there's someone named Yunho in the band back then. Really. He has changed so much. He has transformed from an innocent looking boy (back then at Hug single) into a well-mannered and handsome-looking man (watch Wrong Number).

More importantly, he danced really well.

Okay, enough for U-know. I know I'm going crazy about him.

Don't forget what I mentioned above.

-Rin-